There is nothing wrong with wanting to find an individual or individuals that share your love and interest in this kind of play. They are out there. This is a fairly well-known fetish. There are even dating and discussion sites dedicated to scat play called scatsingles.com and scat.com. There are also discussion threads dedicated to scat on fetlife.com. One individual has stated it is honoring a piece of person either by ingesting or playing with scat.